I realized recently that I try to live my “mission”, but to the neglect of loving my Master. I love my neighbors, not because my Master is worthy, but because I feel that the mission is worthy of me and my abilities. I boast in my own gifts and talents, as if I acquired them on my own. I act as if I was the one chosen to save the world.
I am selfish and prideful at my core. I attempt to attribute my actions to a higher calling. I claim to be working for benefit the greater good. In reality, I am induced to act based on my own ambitions and imagined self-importance.
I have become so mission-oriented and so self-inflated that I stopped listening to my Master’s voice.
What does God have to say about this? He says,
“Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city…Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil.” (James 4:13-16 NIV)
Ouch. All such boasting is evil?
When my mission becomes my master, I start making choices based on my own agenda and selfish desires.
When my mission becomes my master, I care more about what I accomplish, than what Christ has already accomplished.
This is offensive to Him. This is rebellion against Him.
The truth is that Jesus invites me to be a part of His mission. I am a vessel, rather than the agent of change. The lyrics from Matt Redman’s song, “You Alone Can Rescue”, echo the posture of humility I desire to have:
“Who, oh Lord, could save themselves, their own soul could heal?
Our shame was deeper than the sea, your grace is deeper still.
You alone can rescue, you alone can save, you alone can lift us from the grave, you came down to find us, led us out of death, to you alone belongs the highest praise”.
I pray that you would help me to love You above all else. It is so easy to turn even good pursuits into idols. I am sorry for offending You by esteeming “my mission” above You, my Master.
Forgive me for boasting in myself and help to boast in You alone. Thank you for your grace that is deeper than my arrogance. When I love You above all else, I am enabled to sincerely love other people. Otherwise, I am just loving people in order to gratify myself. Help me to have a posture of humility before You and before other people.
1 John 1 : 9 - If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 103 : 11-12 - For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His lovingkindess toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Ephesians 2 : 8-10 - For grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.
Psalm 32 : 8 - I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you.