Giving Up

Psalm 51 : 17 ESV
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.


I am giving up who I am!

After studying Psalm 51:17, I am reassured God doesn't want all the good deeds that I do; no, He wants all of me!

contrite (adj.) con·trite \ˈkän-ˌtrīt, kən-ˈ\
feeling or showing sorrow and remorse for a sin or shortcoming.
— Merriam-Webster Dictionary

God wants a broken and contrite heart. So then, what does that look like? Am I supposed to feel ashamed and guilty for all the sin in my life? Am I supposed to be sad all the time?

No! The Bible also says in Romans 5 : 11, "More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation."

Ok, so my heart is to be broken and contrite,
but I'm supposed to rejoice in my salvation.

I was a little confused. I had to dig deeper, meditate more, read more, and more importantly, pray that God reveal His meaning to me.

What I believe God is telling me through studying this verse is that to become a Christian, I am to humble myself and realize I have sinned against my maker and creator. I am to sacrifice the life I was living. I had to turn away from serving and doing for myself, and start living and serving for God.

When I come to God broken and remorseful for my sins, He will forgive me, and He will not despise me; He will love me. That is when my remorse will turn to rejoicing.

When my two daughters disappoint me, I want them to be sad over what they have done, but I don't want them to stay that way. I don't stay mad at them. I show them that I still love them. In return, they have peace and joy in our relationship. That is how it works with God.

However does it end there? It is likely my daughters will disappoint again. Similarly, I will sin and put myself before God. I am prideful and want to take charge of my life. Will God despise me, and give me over to my sin?

John 10 : 28 says, "I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand." If we are truly His, He keeps us, and will not let go of us. However we will not be happy in our sin, and we will turn back to God, once again with a broken and contrite heart.

I love this quote from John Piper, "We are broken and contrite all the way home - unless sin gets the proud upper hand."



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