He Sees You

Genesis 16 : 13
So she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, “you are a God of seeing,” for she said, “Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.”

I saw a shirt today that said “Mommin’ is hard”.  Shut up and take my money.  I need this shirt in my life.  Lots of things in life are hard.  I just happen to be in the parenting zone.  It can be beautiful, rewarding and fun.  But mostly there’s a lot of mundane.  Even pain.  

This past summer I felt completely broken down and shattered by this mothering job.  No one told me it would be so hard. 

I sat down on my porch one day to take a breather from all the chaos of three boys at home from school and cried out to God, “Can you please just show me that you still love me?  Because I can’t feel it and I don’t see it!” 

For His eyes are upon the ways of a man, and He sees all his steps
- Job 34:21

I was surprised the next morning to find a bag hanging on my front door with a single flower inside.  A friend had been meaning to drop it off because it made her think of me.  For no reason.  

She had no idea the turmoil our family had been going through.  But God did!  It reminded me of an unlikely heroine, Hagar, Abram’s mistress (don’t freak out…that was normal back in the culture they lived in).

Hagar is given to Abram to bear him a son because his wife, Sarai is barren.  It was Sarai’s idea…but she immediately regrets it when she finds out Hagar is pregnant.  In her bitterness, she is treats Hagar so harshly that she flees to the desert.  

The harassment Hagar receives does not go unnoticed by God.  Yet, he does not tell her to run away from the pain.  She is commanded to submit to it, and God promises that she will bear fruit.  He encourages her with a promise that her son will not suffer like her. 

So she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, “you are a God of seeing,” for she said, “Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.”
- Genesis 16:13

Beer-lahai-roi means well of the Living One who sees me.

How did Hagar know she could trust this all seeing God?  He did not promise she would be spared the ridicule and abuse that sent her fleeing to the desert in the first place.  When we truly see God, we can’t help but see His father’s, our loving Creator.

He wants to support and uphold us.  Just as I do my children.  I can’t take away every painful event or hard thing in their life, and I wouldn’t want to even if I could.  Because out of the hard times comes growth, character, maturity.  But he doesn’t leave us to fend for ourselves.  He strongly supports us.  He lifts our heads.  He supplies our every need (not want).

For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His.
- 2 Chronicles 16:9

Sometimes being able to see God at work is hard. Even impossible in some circumstances. But our deepest need is not for God to come fix all our problems.  Knowing we are seen and loved by the very one who created us and has numbered all our days gives us comfort and supernatural power to weather any storm. Hagar was able to return to her tormentor and flourish in the midst of trial.

In the middle of hard, that’s where God is. Even if we can’t see Him.  He does not run from it, but presses in. He holds us together and sanctifies us, because we are His.  He sends encouragement when we need, others to carry us when we cannot walk ourselves, and His strength when we feel so very weak. 

Read God’s promise to be with us in Isaiah below:

Isaiah 43:1-4
…“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior…
Because you are precious in my eyes,
and honored, and I love you…
 

See You in the Round,
Jenn