Shortcomings

This time last year, I was a graduate with few job prospects. I knew in my heart that things would work out, but in my mind, I was overwhelmed and full of anxiety. My roommate (at the time) and I needed to make a decision about our lease at the end of the month, and I knew I couldn’t continue to live off of part-time babysitting gigs forever. 

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God”
(Philippians 4:6, NIV)

Despite these words in Philippians, I could not help but be anxious. Though I thought that my eyes were on God as I prayed and sought His will, I fell short. I let my anxiety get the best of me. I was stressed out and worried all the time. 

I let my anxiety get the best of me. 

I worried about how I was going to pay the rent, buy groceries, and gas for my car. Worried about how I was going to find a career.  I fell into the post-college catch-22: in order to get a job you needed experience, but to get experience you need a job. I felt like I couldn’t win. I was drowning in job applications with no responses and rejection emails. There seemed to be no light at the end of the tunnel.

As the summer went on, I found myself more discouraged and frustrated with the lack of progress I had made with my job search.  For my birthday, a friend gave me a beautiful ceramic plaque with the quote “His mercies are new every day” referencing Lamentations 3:22-23. Living "Intentionally Intentional", as Megan put it, my friend knew I was feeling anxious with so much uncertainty for the far-too-near future. Her gift was a reminder that God is faithful to the end. She saw my shortcomings and reminded me of God’s mercy and grace.

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”
(Lamentations 3:22-23, NIV)

If you read my first post, you know that my current job found me. God was faithful and compassionate, despite my sinful, anxious heart. “His mercies are new every day.”

Who in your life has helped you see your shortcomings? How have you seen God’s faithfulness and compassion in your life?

See you in the round,
Jennie