Made Good Enough
It happened all the time. The teacher would ask a question, and I would never raise my hand. Risk giving out the wrong answer? No way!
Listening to what a fellow student would say and comparing it in my head to what I would have responded with, I so often found at least one little thing wrong with my own answer. It was never good enough. In my mind, anyway.
I rarely speak up or speak out or put any thoughts or feelings where others can see them. I am afraid to give answers; what if I'm wrong? What if, even if I were mostly right, there is some grain of wrongness in what I say? It doesn't take much for me to feel so ashamed and embarrassed! Never good enough. Even on this blog—what will people think of what I write? What if I slip up somewhere? I don't want to mislead anyone in anything!
Maybe you've heard the DC Talk song, “What if I Stumble”:
What if I stumble What if I fall What if I lose my step And I make fools of us all Will the love continue When my walk becomes a crawl What if I stumble And what if I fall Father please forgive me For I cannot compose The fear that lives within me Or the rate at which it grows
We can all relate, I'm sure. Feeling inadequate. Never quite good enough. Putting that little piece of ourselves out there that just might fall short, be criticized, elicit raised eyebrows.
We all stumble and make mistakes, even in our walk of faith, but it's ok. We're all in the same boat—“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23) But wait, there's hope! Keep going to verse 24—“and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”
We're sinful beings, and there's no way we'll ever be “good enough,” whatever definition you want to attach to that. The law God laid down for us is impossible for us to keep; but we don't have to be “good enough”! Jesus was “good enough” for us—he took those sins, those mistakes, those many foibles, and got rid of them on the cross. “For Christ demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)
With his death and resurrection comes the promise of eternal life. How awesome is that? All those inadequacies we think we have don't matter in the long run. And I'd be willing to bet that anyone you come across has a few more such feelings than they would freely admit.
It's not easy, of course; we were never promised a life of ease, and we will always struggle with feelings of inadequacy, both in our faith and in our everyday lives. But we can rest assured that God's got us—we are saved by grace through faith: “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)
Not good enough my foot! As long as we don't let Christ fall from the center of our vision and keep in mind the glory waiting for us in heaven, everything else will fall into place.
See you in the round!
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